When you finally realize you didn't matter at all to someone, you begin to wonder if you matter to anyone.

I hate spending every minute missing you, when i know you're not even thinking about me. I hate that no matter how many times you hurt me, i still crave you more than anything. I hate how i'm not a prioity to you, yet I would drop everything and come running if you ever needed me. I hate the way you make me feel so small and insecure , when all i want is to be appreciated. I hate the fact that i wait around for the phone to ring even though i know you won't call. I hate how you act so indifferent. I hate when your smile makes me weak. I hate how much i want to kiss you. I hate that you have so much control over my heart , and i hate that you know exactly what you do me.